It has been FAR too long since I’ve been on here, but I decided today was the day. I really should write about food, but life seems like a better topic, food will come later, and really, I don’t even have that exciting of a recipe to share this time haha! BUT, sometimes veggies and green things and healthy things need to be tossed by the wayside for some chocolate sometimes!
I was in a car accident yesterday. Nothing life changing….well life changing for my poor new little 2014 Jetta, but wait…I’m wrong, it was life changing. Life changing for my back and life changing for the amount of F words that came flying out of my mouth at the time it happened….whoops! It made me realize, yet again, that life is too short and you have to put yourself out there, because you know what? The people that are meant to be in your life and love you for you, will be there. For me, that means that they’ll love how thoughtful I am, or how excited I get over silly things, how I tell stories, how feisty I can get sometimes (Norma Rae for life), how I work with children, my RIDICULOUS obsession with Lululemon (and JCrew), how I can apparently make people feel good about themselves and how I can hopefully take something bad and learn from it.
One of my best guy friends wrote me a text the other night when I was telling him about God knows what, I’m assuming we were talking about where my life is headed, and it said,”Cut that shit out. Whether you believe it or not, you are someone worth being with. Keep doing what makes you happy and that person will find you. And if not, then you’re still going to make your mark on this world. You do the right thing, and you make people around you feel better about themselves. You give up on that and you let all the shittyness in the world win.” Sometimes, people are just honest and open. I love that about all of my friends (I’m sure his girlfriend loves that about him as well). I mean 11 years of friendship and he can still tell me how it is. I never looked at myself like that. I have heard a lot over the last week that I am someone who people look forward to talking to, who they seek for advice, who they know will turn things around because I am so positive.
I am definitely not positive all the time, but I try. This last semester in graduate school, and all the obstacles I have overcome in life have taught me that. Heck I mean a little over two years ago I was battling all kinds of awful stuff with my ovaries and went through some pretty heineous surgeries and recoveries, yet here I am. Alive, pretty happy, and constructively working towards my goals. I may have a heart that is bigger than most, and I may feel too much at times, but I would rather care too much than not at all.
Recently, as in like 3 days ago, people were trying to be bring me down and make me feel like I am not competent in my field or as an individual. That hurt, bad. But you know what I realized? They don’t know me, who I am, where my heart lies, what I am trying to do with my life, so they take my confidence in my graduate studies and in my Developmental Therapy field as a threat. They take my confidence in knowing I WILL make this world a better place, even if it’s in a small way like healing a child, or making someone happy. I don’t want to be a threat to anyone, I just want to care about everyone and make everyone happy. It’s hard when all you want to do is heal the world and find someone that can make it a better place with you. Last week, before the text message, my guy friend also told me that I would be crazy to give up on meeting someone who wants to take a chance with me. That someone out there is looking for me, or most likely has already met me, and if I give up, they will never have a chance to be in my life and that will take two good people out of this world and take the chance of having more good people out of this world. I didn’t realize I made that much of an affect on people. It made me smile. That just my small acts of kindness can make people so happy or rather believe in me so much. I definitely am one of those people that knows what I want out of life, and I’m not too afraid to go after it, but sometimes that gets challenging. Yet, again, I’ve been through more than most people have in their lives, so that makes me not afraid to try.
I guess in the long run, it isn’t what we do, how we do it or where we are, but it’s how we make each other feel. I hope that I can make lots of people feel good and I also hope that I can meet someone that wants to take a chance on me. Who knows, maybe I already have. Life is fickle that way.
That being said…let’s take a damn chance on some chocolate. Last night, after getting home from the day from HELL… aka when my poor 2014 Jetta died (I don’t wish ill on people, but I could curse the girl who caused this accident), I needed my couch, some Goldbergs and some chocolate and I needed it FAST. I scrounged the kitchen for what I had around, and here’s what happened. AND it was glorious and not unhealthy either….woot!
Chocolate Mug Cake with Whipped Cream
- 1 tablespoon plus 2 tsp cocoa powder
- 2 tablespoons spelt flour, 1 tablespoon coconut flour (or white, or Arrowhead Mills gf)
- 1/8 tsp salt
- 1 tablespoon honey
- 1/4 tsp baking powder
- 2-3 tsp coconut oil
- 3 tablespoons milk of choice
- 1/2 tsp pure vanilla extract
- Homemade whipped cream or whipped cream of choice
Combine dry ingredients and mix very well. Add liquid, stir, then transfer to a little dish, ramekin, or even a coffee mug. I used these cute little mini dutch ovens I got for Christmas. Microwave 30-40 seconds. EAT!!! BUT it’s AMAZING. It is. Warm and gooey. I topped mine with whipped cream. The lovely thing about this is it isn’t too sweet and really, 1-3 bites and you’re done, so share!